This is a prayer by Claire Roy which is one of two bookends for the life led by a severely disabled child and that child's caregiver. The second bookend is 'What was given by Owen'.
Then the Lord Addressed Job out of the storm and said:
Who is this that obscures divine plans with words of ignorance?
Gird up your loins now, like a man: I will question you, and you tell me the answers! Where were you when I founded the earth?
Tell me, if you have understanding.
In this moment I accept that I have been given care of a very fragile person.
I accept that I may likely never know why this task has been passed to me.
In this moment, I accept that I need not know more than the fact that what I do has value.
With that, I will care for this person to the best of my abilities.
I will forgive myself for the days I could do better, but don't.
I will forgive myself for the days I would do better, but cannnot.
I seek to have clarity of thought that I might make choices most in balance with the many intertwining lives, including my own.
I seek to be supported in whatever ways financial and emotional that will maintain this balance.
I seek to learn how to draw from a well of infinite patience and energy.
I open myself up to the possibility of joy, of fulfillment, and of grace.
I accept that, in this moment, it is all I can do.
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